Wednesday, January 24, 2007 ♥
Disastrous devastating night..ever
Since young, I've been having this kind, sort of omen, that whenever something happens, i'll think of the deadliest, most terrible consequences than one can ever imagine. But, however miraculously, in one way or another, the outcome isn't really that worst like how i would thought to be.
[eGs - *when i thought i did major damage to comp and would be prepared for my bro's WORST scoldings, or even fists, he didn't do much and told me not to repeat such error. *when i thought i'd be bullied severely after i drop down to N(A) Stream cos' i've got only few frens there, i was not only safe, but was welcomed warmly by teachers, and friends too. *when i thought I ain't gonna make it thru to sec5, i unexpectedly scored well. *when i thought i'd get reprimanded severely when i 'went over' the time that i promised my mom i'd be back, latest by then, but she didn't flare up, nor give me anger looks or stuffs.
Oncoming two fears - O lvls scored terribly(nt that impt right now); losing her.
Will the outcome of my current fears, become miraculously positive? Or will it really, be the awful undesirable?
Able to do no shit, while seeing her in GREAT pain..
Her intensed rapid cough, fills my pain emotionally, her face, pale like tissue..
My tears, unable to hold back further..
Yes, u told me after you recovered fully, u wanted to go KBox with me, to sing lots of songs, you also wanted to explore singapore with me, to enjoy the wonderful delicious dishes, those u saw, on tv...remb? dont tell me u had already forgotten all these? I've not, yes, i'll be waiting. I can wait, can u?
can you return safely back home from this hospital trip? i'll get ready a fabulous sofy bed for you. The floors will be cleaned, fans washed..all for you.. trust me pls, this once..
yes..currently, you're the only one who can let me teared soo 'tong kuai', been a FEW YEARS since i did that..
yes, i'll chant, and ALOT MORE NOW. im sorry i didnt chant much these few days. playin comps cos' was afraid fa would return and use, then i cant use le..Worst nightmare of my life..will i be able to overcome such big obstacle..I'm not sure if i can face, and overcome this fear...................
i ♥ Tom & Jerry
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
