Saturday, March 31, 2007 ♥
For Jin2
I'm really, and sincerely grateful for everyone's comments. I'll reply, to each and every of you individually thru same/diff methods.Finally i know what i wanted to know - reasons' of everyone's hatred of me.and after reading your piece, there're LOTS errors i think i need to clarify with you.At this very moment, I'll be real frank and serious - not hiding anything else.[Quote]We are angry because you said before this phrase "At my most down moment, the only person whom accompany me is only hc"
For this sentence, i MUST DECLARE that i NEVER USE THE WORD 'only', because i know, and EVERYONE KNOWS TOO(u 3, my whole extended gang of relatives) that you 3 WERE LOYAL BEST OF BEST FRENS to me. Yes, i admit tt i did mentioned before that 'During my lowest point of life, hc is here for me'. not tt i said u guys were nt here for me at all, I never said hc is the only person who accompanied me.
And yes, OF COURSE i knew that u 3 were true and almost-extinct LOYAL Excellent friends of mine, especially during my mum's dilemma, her death and after that - tt u all rushed down to the hospital upon rec-ing my msg, and all the chanting u guys did, and coming down for the funeral. yeap, I'm really and am REAL TOUCHED by what u all did. and tts why i only sms to 3 of u when her death was announced instantly. and tt also explains why i wrote my that entry.
ur another [QUOTE] 2"Stop going around and say how pitiful you are men~! cox you really don't deserve it~ stop trying to let others think that is our or anybody fault ok?"
and hey, for this, let me get this clear. I DID NOT, AND NEVER EVER DID, GOING AROUND TO SAY HOW PITIFUL I AM, CAN U GIVE ME NAMES OF PPL WHO SAID I DID SO? I DIDNT EVEN GO AROUND TO SAY, IN THE FIRST PLACE, HOW CAN I 'STOP' THEN?SAME GOES FOR THE SECOND PART OF tt sentence.
ur another [QUOTE] 3AND stop asking your 3rd and 4th aunts to patch things up because that's not gonna do anywhere gd~ If you think you are right and that whatever you did is morally upright then why didn't you dare to come and talk to us that day? (during mk b'day celebration)
ONCE AGAIN. I DIDNT NOT EVEN ASK THEM TO HELP, HOW CAN I 'STOP' THEN?I JUST TOLD 4TH THAT I'LL NOT WORK ANYMORE COS' U GUYS HAF SOME PROBLEMS WITH MEAND THEN SHE WAS ONLY TELLING ME HOW LOYAL AND GREAT FRENS U GUYS HAVE BEEN, AND I THOUGHT SO, YA, SHE'S RIGHT. SO I TRIED TO PATCH THINGS BACK WITH WJ FIRST.
nope. i didnt nego with u guys on tt day because i respected mk, and i want him to have a peaceful great bday celebration, and would not want to mess things up for him on that day.before that day, thru someone, i DID tell wj and ask him come out meet me and talk. but he rejected my offer..*ps. im sry for the caplocks, but i just hate being accused of things i didnt do, and words i didnt say.
these past few months, u guys have been my strength, my source of power to move on in lifeI'm truly sincerely thankful for what u all have done for me.please do not say im making use of u guys(or saying others as well, unless u really hear from them - their explanations.. do not accuse ppl, esp false accusations. they'd be hurt. how'd u feel if others accuse of u things u nvr did huh?), i'm shattered to hear such words.. im not tt type ungrateful person, u mean u dunno me enough? im disappointed tt despite all the times we all been tgt, my intentions with u guys were misinterpreted as evil, negative.
anyway, u know, i TREASURE friendships lots as well. but u didnt gave me any chance to explain, and u jus say things like 'end of friendship LEE CHIN KIAT~'.unless u think frens, esp good and decent ones are ez to find, if not, as a ex-fren of yours, an advice to u is treasure ur future friendships well, and do nt end ezily, like how u said and type - that ezily. u ended quite a few i know..
ur [QUOTE] 4So if you really want to solve this problem then you shall be the one who appologise first because we are defintely not at wrong. BUT if you don't it's also ok
yup, as i mentioned, i initiated to wj to meet to trash things out, he didnt.tt one nvm, then i blogged, hoping to patch things up.i did, as much i cud, to save our frenships, whereas u guys jus waited - i think from what i see, i can sort of get an idea of how u guys treasure our frenships. if u guys really really treasure our frenship, it doesn really matters who apologise, first.what makes it more difficult for things to be patched up is tt u guys ignored me, giving me cold shoulders. Avoiding aint gonna solve any problems.the 2nd part of tt sentence..can sort of give me the impression of the importance u see our frenship as.and please dont say you're not at wrong, cos' you're wrong at accusing me of what kind person i am - in your blog, the entry of 25th march of urs, entirely mismatch my personalities and character, because that's what u think only, please do ask to confirm whether if sth is true or nt, ask tt person esp if tt matters concerns him/her, instead of jus false accusing them ya? that entry made me real upset.
In conclusion, i don't think we'll still be the old we(as in me tgt with u all), IF WE DO patch back this frenship. after hearing my explanation and u're still not convinced abt my sincerity to reconcile, and would rather let go of our frenship..so be it. i wont hate u guys, for from what i learnt from Nichiren Daishonin Buddhism, hatred shall not live and appear in my heart, at least not in the near future.if u guys aint happ wif me still, i see no reason forcing us being frens again.. for it'll only cause much misery, if that's the case, i can only wish u guys all da best in e future..
i ♥ Tom & Jerry
Saturday, March 31, 2007
